You Said It Was Forever

woohoo thunder storms

Sun, 23 May 2004 05:36:32 GMT

so, hangin out with jil and kato earlier, work then the mall and such. later watched some rocky horror with them and tim then everyone went their sep. ways. jils with bob, kato had a hott date lol and i went to tea time with tim durring the tornado lol the power went out for like a half an hour, we sat in the window drinking our tea with a few other people in there, the whole place was just randomly lit by small candle light, and we looked out the one window which is actually the whole wall cuz its just glass basically cuz its right in the front lol and checked out the lightening. seriously one of the coolest tea time experiences ever. i def got a history with that place, and that was the coolest time ever. then we went back to tims and just kinda chilled. lol na na no funny business goin on we just kinda crashed we were both really tired. i woke us up around 1, 1 10 (thank you mental alarm clock) and scooted on home. im so cozy with him, im gunna be sad when he leaves. what else is new.
hmmm, thats reminding me of the last person i knew that took off. shit... dont even know that dude anymore.
whelp, fallin asleep practically. long day. nighters.

bah creepy...

Fri, 14 May 2004 01:13:47 GMT

Which Band Should You Be In? by couplandesque
Your Name
Band Name	System Of A Down
Role	Vocalist
Trademark	Dark-Rimmed "Emo" Glasses
Love Interest	Your Next-Door Neighbour

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wowzas...

Sun, 09 May 2004 05:21:48 GMT

Your Homocidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Sex

Your Favorite Target:

Inanimate objects

Your Kill Count:

685,430,937

Your Battle Cry:

"Mutha fuckaaaaaaas!"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$309,711,349,020,634

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 34%

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fake smiles up the wazoo

Sat, 08 May 2004 23:10:27 GMT

work today was an experience... seriously soo friggin busy. all you mothers day procrastinators!!! lol damn it was insane. but i didnt mess up royally lol AND i finally got my jennifer name tag which is sweet lol spices up the day when people randomly decided to like use my name while talking to me, its kinda funny cuz its all the same age group of guys.. like mid-late twenties and possibly early 30's its kinda weird lol but def noticable.
soo, yeah on another note... just finished eatin din, waitin for tim to get back from dinner with his family to do something. jil is goin with kevin to a show tonight i think? and katlyn is workin like a maniac.. her boss is so trying to make her quit. i hope she gets hired at g&g.
hmm... i think i could go for some more tea time again... they better have gotten more bubbles by now lol SECOND TIME IVE BEEN THERE IN THE PAST 2 YEARS THAT THEY RAN OUTTA BUBBLES. its like, you know you go there too much when!!! DOT DOT DOT.... haha oh well, speaking of tea time, jil and kevin ended up meeting us there, kevins a good listener lol wtg oh and then jil used to like tim but now shes back to hating him again, which, meh he did turn into an ass there for a min so i dont blame her for gettin snippy. i knew she was going to cuz i know her personality, tim didnt really care though, and im assuming misjudged the amount of attitude he gave her. i cleared it up for him like this to prove my point "how do you think you didnt give her attitude? you used a tone with her that you would NEVER use with me, cuz you know id kick your ass. THATS my proof that you got snippy with her". after a while he felt bad and apologized. considering it was a misunderstanding over a 25 cent pack of gum though, im gunna hold my good faith in jil in thinkin that she'll just let it go.
i talked to kato on my way home from work, paul stopped over to claim his things today lol theres a winner. i hope she like lit it on fire and THEN threw it in his face, or on her back deck... which has collapsed lol. either one would be great.
hmm, i dunno what to do tonight, i feel bad when im just like i dunno... i dont care... bein so indecisive cant be the easiest thing for the person hanging out with me to deal with. which... lately has been tim. im never thinkin of anything to do. its like watch a movie... dennys... tea time...mall. take your pick. bah that reminds me i really wanted to go shopping this weekend theres a dress and shoes i want but i dont know how im ever gunna end up gettin out there or who with. bah i quit. whatever.
well im lovin the awkward silence in the house right now.. everything was fine before we ate and then my dad got all pissy at the end of dinner. dunno why, hes got some unspoken right to just flip the asshole switch whenever he wants without ANY consideration of others in the house. who knows why. most likely was cuz of something i said. so now moms all quiet. she dont wanna talk to him neither. but hey... nothing beats that one new years eve when they were screaming at eachother over what we were having for dinner. my dad wanted to cook all this good stuff but my mom forgot to like... do something with the shrimp or whatever, i dont even know, all i remember is my mom making like the ultimate offense and daring him to 'not make all that food' because 'she doesnt care' and if it were up to her 'shed eat burger king, it doesnt matter to her because fighting over it was bullshit'. yep, that was a good year.
hmmmm... ok im off, get some mothers day stuff together.
i hope tim calls soon. what am i getting myself into?
i dunno, all i know is i like being with him, hes fun to hang out with. a good friend now, and gives me a really good feeling because he tells me he loves being with me too. i forget about things that are buggin me usually. good guy...to me anyway. i enjoy havin him around.

tea time!

Fri, 07 May 2004 01:27:28 GMT

just got home from tea time with tim. doug called but once again.. couldnt really talk though.
haha i see someone likes to delete comments posted. ouch.. hit a sensitive spot there?

wigwam!!

Thu, 06 May 2004 20:42:33 GMT

whos that sexy mama with the 102 english average in altadonna's class? oh yeah u guessed it lol yours truly!! :-D thats insane, never had a hundred average in like anything in the hs.... ever.
bah gotta scoot... off to chill with the timothy soon.

everyones a rambo...

Thu, 06 May 2004 02:18:31 GMT

health hw is weird... i have to find an article on a supplement and write a reaction, but this thing is absolutley rediculous. someone let me know if they actually believe hormone replacement supplements actually work and allow one to "defy the aging of time" lol what a crock. so, anywho, yeah just kinda been chillin around the house catchin up on some hw, no biggie, had to stay home though cuz dads been gettin mad im runnin around with the fellas on school nights lol. whatever. ah but we did enjoy some tea time after school today.. kato you crack me up lol and timmy... UR WELCOME! ha!
oh man... insane fights at school. i cant believe lil ricky got in trouble for fighting, took it like a champ though, i must say, it was unusual to see him all worked up like that. damn.
ha but that was actually soon forgotten about when kids fought in the actual hallways, blood everywhere lol and rizzo tackled this one dude, and he was covered in blood too. that was some sick shit. lol omg so that was over two days. then the second day while driving home after school there were two kids fighting on the sidewalk lol tim blamed it on mating season. man o man... people are gettin loopy. bah especially katlyn... ewww randall! lol dunno what that girly is thinkin, tryin to set me up with the dude, sees what a whacko he is, but that doenst stop her from stoppin HIM when he makes advances towards her. i will never understand it. hmm.. i think jils supposed to be with bob tonight? or maybe its too soon lol i think from 11 til 1 was the plan for bobbiness lol good luck with that one kido. i hope i dont have alotta stuff to do tomorrow, im thinkin dennys with tim... anyone else can come too if they like, i wonder if kevin will feel like goin. meh, dunno.
i duno whats been up with derrek lately, i see him in school a lot but for some reason he just like, stopped talking to me. looks right at me and then right past me. i have no idea where thats coming from, but, i dunno. one day were good buds and the next hes like ignoring me. i didnt do anything to make him mad, cuz i havent talked to him in a while, and last time we DID talk.. nothin bad happened... i dont think... i dont even remember it was so long ago.
haha! omg... this weekend beasley wants me to go with him and some other dude to penn. to get fireworks lol thats really kinda creepy, not so sure about the follow through with that plan. we'll see.
woah thats odd, i just saw nicks last update and theres a huge pic of jils ass lol like in her jeans, all up close, i have no idea what thats about or why he has it and i dont wanna know. hmm, now i see what he was busy doing while I was busy making our whole GROUP PROJECT over the weekend!!!!! grrrr!!!! lol meh, im over it. it looks cool, im just glad to be done.
hmm, doug called me last night while i was at tims. i didnt really have a chance to talk to him.. but i think i need to. just a little something that im not gunna make into a huge issue, but, a little heads up about the way some things work around here, apparently hes forgotten, being away for so long and all. but meh, whatever, we'll get into that later. alright then im headin off gotta finish some stuff and see if i can get to bed before midnight tonight lol later!! <3

sam i am!!

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 05:34:02 GMT

hmm, work was interesting today....fixing other peoples mistakes lol then we had counting issues in the back room with the registers.... poor timmy was waiting for me for like a half an hour... but he lived. lol then we met up with jil and kevin over at dennys had some fun with the loaded questions cards lol then... were gunna go to kevins to watch a movie but we didnt have a lotta time. so jil went home.. to hang with bob im guessin lol hey, cool, whatever, then me and tim and kevin went back to kevins and just kinda chilled for like an hour or so watched lethal weapon 2 good one lol and tim kept attaking me. jeezums. hmm... im so bored, i dont really know what to do, i kinda wanna eat i should have at dennys, i mean i really only did have like, toast today. i woke up at like 1 40 that was insane i mean i never wake up that late, i was sleepin off the week lol cuz SOMEONE kept me on the PHONE like 3 NIGHTS OUTTA THE WEEK TIL LIKE MIDNIGHT. lol ok whatever. im gunna scoot, too much convo to handle, i got tim on the phone and doug on an im. nighters.... I LOVE YOUR SHOES!!! AND YOUR HANDCUFFS AND YOURE STEERING WHEEEEEEEL!!!!!!! LOL and i love you kato!!!!

hmm home for the night

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 04:57:31 GMT

ok then what a friday.. went to the mall for a bit finally got a wallet! lol wahoo!
then went to showplace with jil and kato, finally saw andy in space persuasion that was cool.
then after me and jil and kat went to dennys, where we met up with kevin, tim, vince (i missed u i havent seen you in forever!! lol) and adam and some dude jeff lol. it was a fun time though. poor timmy, i felt bad, hes a wreck from tryin to quit smoking, i hate to see him like that, i hope he fights it. theres just so much working against him.
ooh, at showplace though.. it was def good to be back there. haha!! omg!! almost gettin hit in the face with the door in the bathroom lol from katlyn flinging it out on me wow lol and people accusing us of smoking crack in there... lol yes, CLEARLY... as i shake my head and sigh lol. oh and we even got our spots too, on them lil stool thingys by the railing. emotions were stirred lookin for our grafiti from the past. i was sittin right infront of the logo thingy doug drew that one time, of reality is due, i was totally dismayed to see like half covered with some stupid ugly sticker. for like the next 15 minutes i sat there scratchin away at it im like no way, this stupid thing is comin off. so yeah, in time i was successful, and then content as well. i was determined lol cuz kato had to see it.
alright then, well, tomorrow is work and then ah lol the big "set up outing" with paul kato and randy. we shall see how this turns out.

so excited!!

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 05:07:36 GMT

I FRIGGIN FOUND MY KEYS!! LOL
SCORE!!!
THEY WERE CHILLIN ON THE COUNTER!! CRAZINESS I TELL YAH!
alright, so yeah just got home from dennys with jil and tim and kevin (i love the hair!) and dave one of tims friends. haha omg when we were ordering me and jil thought about vince with his.. "ill have a coffee a water and a bowl of lemons please!! :) " hahaha aww we were craking up and agreed that we equally missed vin vin and his comical ways of things as simple as placing an order at dennys lol.
stopped at the tb for a bit, had some umm... interesting convos there with katlyn lol weirdo! and yeah then the dennys where i was enraged because they wouldnt let jil bring in the tb cup. it was just cherry coke, people!! damn!
mmhmm, so lookin for a reply from doug for that one massive email i sent... and... i got nothin. i officially declare that whole straw wrapper thing total nonsense and lies. yeah. but anywho... ooh! work was good today, went smooth. well not totally i did make some pretty dumb mistakes lol but nothing major it was easily fixed, im just loopy like that lol i mean the sun DID lighten the hair lol from bein in fl... so we could say im like dirty blonde now. haha its an excuse... oh man!! kevin cut his hair!!! ITS SO SHORT! BUT I LOVE IT!!! i like hardly even remember his hair like that, oh yeah cuz i never really knew him too well when it wasnt long haha.
im really really lookin foreward to this weekend. im seriously so happy to be home, wakin up in my own bed, bein able to sleep in a room where i can shut the door and im not out in the middle of an open house. ahh i love it, lol its nice and dark and i can sleep much better. i missed it. i missed everything. ok yeah so, tomorrow night... finally get to go to showplace to see andy, im really hopin it all works out this time just cuz im still mad at myself for missin it that one other time.. its the principle behind the matter too. so, yeah i cant wait. ooh and then i get to meet this infamous randy saturday night lol lets see if katlyn and paul live up to their word. i make no promises for anything lol ill be lucky if i get a new friendship outta this, that would be nice. but otherwise, dont even know if im capable of that at this point. i dunno, we shall see...should be a fun fun weekend

lightly toasted

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 00:51:22 GMT

well, yesterday we went to the pier fun times fun times im really kinda sunburnt though, then met some of my moms coworkers at the hurricane for dinner. OMG IM SERIOUSLY SO EXCITED. the one guy brought his son jared and jared brought his friend jeff. holy crap, first kids ive had interaction with since ive been down here. theyre kinda youngins bein 15 and all but HEY close enough.. theyre teenage boys lol which is more than i can say ive talked to face to face in quite some time here in fl!! theyre cool kids too! punk boys, swiffers!! lol it was a lot of fun, i needed that. i hope we can all do something again. i probly wont see them anymore outside of here cuz they live in like lackawana or something. yeah, but, ill have to keep in touch until theyre about 17 lol theyre gunna be cuties then! lol i saw the chucks, wristbands, hair, and dickies shorts and i couldnt have been happier lol instantly made convo out of music. didnt have a lotta compatibilities as far as the local groups go, but jared HAS heard of custom made! haha. good times, good times. ah, ok well, hope everyone is having a good easter!! im totally stuffed blah!! and sunburnt!!mostly from yesterday and the boat ride this morning :( i hope it all goes away soon lol and guess what tomorrow is??? monday! ill be home in a few more days! ahhhh cant wait! i miss everyone so much! i wish i had more time home with you guys! i can only take so much of "i spy" over the phone with tim before ya know its time to get on home lol.
but ya know what? i miss dougie a lot too, but thats one thing that goin home isnt really gunna help. it sux. i call him every now and then, a lot more than usual just recently, but he like hardly ever answers his phone (so ima guess school or sleeping??) but he never calls me back either! grrrr.... almost as agitating as this stupid sunburn....

totally tired...

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 00:52:49 GMT

hmm, lightly sunburned, but it doesnt hurt, and slightly dizzy from sittin at the top of the Hurricane watchin the sun set. ahh yes, fav part about fl. ooh ohh! i finally was able to get icecream too lol withouth being cold to begin with. its great.
haha omg, i was talkin to my mom today about the summer and vactioning to various places. im like yeah, so ill be in vegas for a bit, ya know, i KNOW youre lettin me go....
she actually said
we'll see.
and promises that we can all have a serious conversation about it later, and that it may possibly work as like a b-day thing. isnt that insane??!?!?!
omg i cant wait till the friday after im back. i hope andy can gimme tix for the show. im totally there lol im still pissed at myself for missin the one before.
holy crap i just realized, sat scores are posted tomorrow. BAH!! i dunno if thats good or bad or WHAT!! im tryin not to be excited cuz if i did bad, then ill be disappointed. but i dont think i did bad... ahhh i probly just jinxed myself!! theres no way to win with this!! lol i guess ill just have to wait and see tomorrow!! :-/
alright, whelp, im gone. where is everyone tonight!? i got no one to talk to here.. man o man. the bl is like all away messages, and only 5 people are on anyways. grrr.....

waste of space

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 18:03:23 GMT

so, word on the street is i "demand too much time from people that they just dont have" even though im tolerant and patient and am always just there for people when they need me.
well, thanks for listening, tim and jil.
i think the best argument against it all was from tim "well i feel sorry for him then. for not being able to see. hes an ass, and just lost something precious"
i have a feeling thats not the case with him though...it seems like im the only one thats pissed about having to go through this twice. same person, same excuses, same bullshit. just this time im not so devastated. although, i have the ocean in the backyard lol so i sit out there a lot and just kinda chill. its like emo city over here.
ah well, im over it. just, ya know, courtesy of aaron...im involuntarily back to the heart of stone.

gotta love that memory thing....

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 03:20:31 GMT

so im in for the night, dont really have anywhere to go or any friends to go around with. i was sittin outback on this lil swingy thing, with my used and brand new cds and my phone, just kinda chillin, enjoying the air and stars and such.
im lookin around...at the water, spacin off, lol lookin up at the sky, just kinda random. thinkin a lot.. that usually happens when youre alone.
i looked over at the tree, between our backyard and the neighbors' its this huge mango tree. i remembered when i was little, my dad lifting me up so i could get one. between me and my sister we got enough for all of us to eat for breakfast that day. its not like we just kinda took them either... the neighbor was outside, this nice dude, not a really old guy, like, 40's or so..lived there with his wife. yeah he was ouside with us tellin us to take what we wanted cuz they couldnt eat them fast enough.
i remembered that morning when i looked at the tree
then thought...oh yeah, the neighbors..i remember them...
i wonder why i havent seen the man outside at all yet?
then i truly remembered...
it hit me, alone on the dark swing, with "found a box of sharp objects.." blaring in my ears:
...they were murdered.
it was right around then i overcame my temporary paralysis and got my ass off that swing and back into the house.
with that i bid you all goodnight from florida...where it cant be all its cracked up to be.

lazy florida dayz.......

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 14:45:45 GMT

so im sittin here in my aunts comp room, and up on this board with tons of pics is the best comp print out ive ever seen... of me and jil and kato goin to winter dance. hehe i forgot my mom sent that to them. it def caught me by surprise to look up and see you two there lol awww... i miss my girls!!! haha. well, i woke up crazy early cuz the dogs were barkin....but i guess its alright though cuz i didnt go to bed that late anyway....blah i fell asleep at like 1. hey man... those flights were chaos and we almost missed the second one out of atlanta because stupid delta planes had like a half hour delay. i felt like i was in a movie, literally running through the airport with like 30 other people lol all goin to the same plane with the same connections to go to fl. it was so funny.
hmm... i hope jil's managing ok with josh...kato only one more day!! lol doug...grr i tried to call u last night! way to answer :-P
alright children, im off....the question is where to?..where to?
my parents disappeared lol hmm maybe ill just go sit outside for a bit.. i duno though theres a buncha dudes out there next door and theyre kinda creepy. like... old guys lol. like, maybe ones 20ish and the rest are 30+. its too early to deal with that. tty guys lata!

gotta love that snow....

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 01:42:58 GMT

havent updated in a while... in fact, havent really been online in a while. sorry guys. but anywho... damn this snow it sux sooo bad!!! blah.
well, at least i got aaron to pick me up from school today, we went to HOD to see erich and tell him about the new ideas aaron has for his other tattoo... this is gunna be good lol i wonder if i can go and sit in on it again....
my timing of this weekend is all distorted because of not having school monday... soo, whatever night it was that we went to xtreme wheels... sat night? sun night? i dunno, but, it was fun. its really cool in there. i must say, i heart the armor for sleep lol i saved in a mosh by the cool dude next to me (dunno where aaron was for that one lol i was relying on total strangers for their courtesy) and afterwards i almost attacked the dude that was singing lol i got all giddy and jumpy and aaron just looked at me and goes "the armor for sleep guy?!??!" lol it was good. where is that kid... oh yeah, at hooters with the "brothers" "HI my names aaron and i go to hooters for the food!" lol :-P
im wondering where dougie is.... i havent talked to him in a while, and cant really do up the long distance anymore after my phone bill for last month was 50+ bucks lol the parents didnt like that one too much. so upon reading his away message... im wondering who its directed towards... probably not myself, because if it was couldnt he just have called me himself? i dunno, but whoever hes thinking that message to, i was thinking it myself about him.
hanging out with paul and katlyn this weekend was something else... it was fun times dont get me wrong, but, i like paul, is that wrong? it seems like me and kat are the only ones that think hes a good dude. and i dont mean that aaron has a problem with him, he definatly doesnt but i didnt exactly flip my hair and say "so! whatcha think of paul??!!" cuz im sure hed be like "umm... i dunno hes cool" lol and thats it. but yeah i just mean out of like jil and kevin and tim and such. speaking of that lil gang... didnt really see them this weekend. jils mom was away, supposed to be the big hang out at jils, and that all flew out the window. we def need to hang out though.
i was really really bored tonight...argued with the parents that was a jolly good time. i need to work on managing stressful things, and ignoring things that irritate and annoy me. im not very good at that. LOTS of things annoy me and i hate it when i feel that way lol. im usually like that at home, so a lot of the buds dont really know what im talking about. yeah this is kinda a home with the parents thing when i just look at someone and think "why are you talking?" i imagine gruesome deaths for myself at that instant so i wont have to hear the stupid babble. like i said... im annoyed way to easily, and i shouldnt be. plus im sick and every bright light and the reflection from the stupid snow makes my eyes feel like theyre going to explode. i want to be better now !
mmkay well.... i think thats all for the low down on whats been up. im off to find my coheed cd....

mellow monday but a saucy saturday

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 03:18:22 GMT

alright... havent updated in a while... but omg... what the junk happened with me this weekend?!?!?!?!
first of all... friday night, aaron randomly asks me to hang out saturday, and ya know "catch up" i agreed and figured it would be interesting to hang out with him again. wow... interesting... is um, an understatement i think.
so, me and jil went to the mall earlier that day lol and found the "lingere" tank top lol and then....
yea 6:30ish i stepped onto my porch towards aaron for the first time in months. it was creepy. but good.
i was afraid it was going to hurt.
jil was convinced the thoughts of the evening would go one way, while i was expecting the worst and exact opposite. fortunately jil was right lol.
and we wont really go into detail about just how right she was.
and yea i really have no idea whats going on right now. outside of that... katlyn and kevin seem to be done, i just got in a fight with dan cuz he was tweaking on me for something i didnt even do, and other people are just frustrating because they have no idea how others feel about them, and somehow... i take the rap for it. whatever.

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 01:05:52 GMT

"..And if the consequence could speak out loud
I can only pick up vibrations
So get in line
And fortify
See, it's just time to you're out
And scream from the top of the moon
One more time...
You see, the execution by christmas lights
Seems to have its own irony
So get in line
And fortify
Take all of your tiny wishes
And dump them all overboard
With me tonight
So drop that cherry bomb
And leave the helmet of lies
There's a new rush that is waiting to meet you tonight
But I may choose to leave at once
When there's no one begging me to come around
Begging me to come around"

"will you come home and stop this pain tonight
stop this pain tonight...
..Don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head *I miss you, miss you*
don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head *I miss you, miss you*"

stuffin my face

Wed, 25 Feb 2004 02:43:40 GMT

omg... just got home from work. soo friggin hungry, gone from 5 to 9. kinda fun, kinda boring too, omg i gotta say it was great when i picked up the giant garbage bag full of them foam peanuts and stuff lol to take it outside to the dumpster, lol and i wraped my arms around it and like held it like i was a giant umpa loompa it was so funny. then i saw there were handles. lol jono was laughin so hard. then i couldnt throw it all the way up to the top to make it over the edge of the dumpster thingy cuz i was laughin so hard lol it smacked it right in the middle and then went crashing back down at me. oh yea on register i managed to ring up a card for 7000 dollars lol. nice. ok well, less talk more eating... im inhaling this bk. healthy i know....

back to old habits

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 22:32:52 GMT

well, after we were all so proud of our timmy for takin the upper hand and deciding to quit smoking... he informed me today that he has "quit trying to quit smoking" lol wow... winner!! so yea i was kinda mad at him for lying, but i guess in those three days he told us he didnt smoke at all, he only smoked once lol but hey i called it katlyn, didnt i? i knew it. so, i get in the car, he was takin me home from school, i look down, two lighters a black one and white one ive never seen before... and that like bright pinkish purple one on the floor. a camel box chillin there with like 6 smokes in it. and underneath... a full, brand new pack never been opened of the same stuff. im like "oh! oooh! what are these tim?? huh!?" lol so i grabbed both lighters and both packs and attempted to like pretend to throw them out the window lol and he freaked he wasnt mad but like, didnt want me to. so im all askin him why he changed his mind and wants to smoke again. he didnt really make any good points worth repeating so im just like, no no, you wanted to stop. now, i wont allow this. lol and i wouldnt give him back anything. he said he was "touched that i cared because no one else has or ever would do anything like that to him. dont know if its good or bad, but maybe its what he needs". ha! im like alright then. so i kept it all. but then hes like, hey at least give me back one pack, please? lol so me in all my witty humor.... takes the opened pack, takes out all but one, breaks em out the window and drops them. i close it up and im like here ya go, this is how we do! heres your one pack. lol and i totally took the unopened pack and all three lighters. lol hes like ONE SMOKE! THATS ALL YOURE LEAVIN ME WITH!?!?! and i just laughed. and i got out and grabbed the one lighter of the floor of the car lol so then i had all three, and hes like NO! at least give me a lighter!! how am i supposed to light this?!?! and im like, umm, maybe you should make a fire like the boyscouts do! lol wow was i a brat today, but hey, im sorry to anyone that takes offense to my story, i dont like to sit back and watch my friends kill themselves, although im sure he will find a way to get more if he really wants to, im not that dumb. he made the decision before to stop, so as long as he hangs around me (us) were not going to encourage him going back on his word. not with something like this.

sunny sunday

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 00:38:37 GMT

hmmm... woke myself on up today and went runnin around with jil so she could drop off more applications... any time girl. and..... ha! saw my pac sun sweetie lol were such stalkers. anywho... saw katlyn over at the tb... and then when i got home, my sis and robb were here. my sis was all mad cuz that house they went to go see thats like really sweet totally got sold out from under them and she was like in love with it, so, yea she was kinda upset. but anywho... umm, did some homework, and talked to doug a lil bit. havent heard from tim or kevin at all today, well, usually kevin would be the online type.. but, tim hasnt called at all, hmm.. maybe he worked a lot? dunno. i found my seafood cd, im pretty excited lol. its one aaron burned for me...and i just never wanted to listen to it after we stopped talking, then i forgot i had it, but then i found it lol and i remembered how much i liked it. i finally finished that friggin essay, wasnt as painful as i thought it was gunna be, one of the quicker ones ive ever done too. which... it figures... i finished it AND had time to go out with jil, and still got home in time for dinner. nothin else to do, i assumed i should finish all hw cuz tim would probly call and see if i could do something.. but he didnt, so now im sittin here with nothin to do lol and no ones online. :-P jerks! haha j/p.
omg.. it was so nice out the other day, like friggin 50 degrees! haha (what the hell's a degree?!!?) we abandoned all jackets lol and rolled down the windows... bumpin The Darkness lol gotta love it. then the next day it snowed lol dont ask how or why. then today it was back up to like 40. wacky weather if i do say so myself, but meh i dont mind i had fun wearin the rockstar shades today lol it was so friggin bright and sunny outside. insane.
ya know what i miss? the showplace shows. we havent been there in a really long time. feels like the group is gettin bored of dennys, i dunno, but im gettin that vibe. maybe not though, cuz no matter where we do it, all we do is just sit around and chat lol. hmm, alright i think ima go play games or something, i dunno whatelse to do with myself, everyone has disappeared lol. buhbyes!

yeehaw!!

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 01:12:45 GMT

attempted to go work clothes shopping today...i thought it was gunna be hopeless, and i was like horrified at the things i saw lol. but then... a light shown upon me in american eagle. lol, i got myself some khaki pants and low and behold... there were two cute long sleeve denim shirts my size... for ten bucks lol im like holy crap, bless you american eagle. lol theyre all small and cute and stuff and go really well with the pants. haha.. man o man... how i managed to work my way into this... well, what do those people expect.. hiring a 16 year old lol, omg, i totally own that dress code there, its gunna be so cute. so come on and visit! if youre lucky i might have my hair in pigtail braids for that day hahahaha. :-P alright so, anywho, im just sittin here chillin now listening to some yellowcard and talkin to dougie. katlyn and kevin just left online, i guess the plans have changed, so i inhaled my dinner for no reason, and got all ready and stuff cuz i had to call tim back i thought we were leaving sooner. but NOOOO!! lol but meh, whatever, ill live. cant complain if theres time with doug lol.

awesome day

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 01:15:46 GMT

alright, school was meh not too cool...BUT once i got home... fantabulous day. alright doug walked outside and a ups truck pulled up... thats right, he finally got all the stuff we sent him. im sooo happy.. i think he really liked it...i wish i coulda been there to see the reaction though. but, yeah i talked to him a bunch today so im really really happy... best mood ive been in (without any mood altering substances) in quite a bit. i luv dougie and i miss him bunches, so i have to see to it that i make him smile somehow. oh yeah, and, i can start a "send jen to vegas" fund lol because.....i had an interview at hallmark today.. and i start tuesday. finally... takin a step towards growin up here (can we please admit im at least 13 now?! lol) and attemtping some responsibility. my sis is all happy for me and my parents too... and doug lol since he knows cuz he called to see how it went. thanks a bunch guys. out of respect for jil and the temporary funk shes in..(not pity, sympathy, or charity, but respect only, i dont want her to feel screwed over like she did with the unkindness of certain other co-workers)... i owe it to her now to help her out at least with some $ for gas, no matter how much she might resist. *im gunna help ya jil cuz now ill be able to and i want to, i KNOW youre gunna get it all sorted out for yourself too real real soon, dont worry, i still say be polite to julie and ask for some hours. no matter how much you might not like her, you work FOR her, so then its your choice, tell her what she wants to hear, or dont work for her. flippin out on her isnt going to get you far. but until then, i owe it to you for always cartin me around.*

lost

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 03:03:30 GMT

alright, ya know what?
no
this is so hard to explain but here we go...
not the last entry, but second to last. jil and katlyn... disregard what you read that you wanna ask me about. i take it back.
i thought i had it right....
thought i finally came to something that couldnt really be argued, but, now i dont think thats right.

hungry!

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 02:30:18 GMT

munchin on some shrimp scampi like theres no tomorrow lol omg.. i didnt eat dinner cuz i ate so much this morning what with dennys and then fridays with my mom and sis i couldnt eat dinner, so i just took off with kev and then later tim so i could escape eating again lol but theyre were havin such good food here... i couldnt eat it though i was so full. but now im good to go lol so im chowin down... totally content with this and some coheed lol yep finally got that today. i looooove three evils such a good song. :)
so, i guess thursday is gunna be playin with andrew w.k. sometime soon in the fall? me and tim are down for the thursday part... were gunna go if we still can. be fun.
lol omg... kevins mom asked me what game we were all playing yesterday night.. she said it sounded like we were all having a really good time and was laughin at how hard we were laughin and im like "omg! did we wake you up?!?! im so sorry!!" and shes like oh no no, it was funny. lol im thinkin ohh god.... i felt so bad i remembered kevin tellin me how his parents dont really like anyone, especially his mom lol. but they would never tell anyone to their face. eek im scared. lol. just got home from bein there with kevin and tim.. we watched snatch.. i finally get that movie its good lol. and part of the tuxedo. seen that before.. its really weird.
hmm alright time to go... finish hw and off to bed. wooohoo! 4 day week! night guys